one hell of a semester

This 2nd half of the year has been hell to me. All I did was study. Oh, but I'm not done studying yet. I still have three effing weeks before winter break. Good thing we have a Thanksgiving holiday next week.

I'm still trying to keep my sanity. But, boy, the nursing course is hardcore. And I'm on my first semester only. Oh f*ck!!!!

Goodbye nail polish....

HELLO CLINICALS UNIFORM!!!

You guessed it right. I'm now into clinicals. I will begin my clinicals next semester which is January '09. I am really excited but nervous at the same time. I don't know what to expect.

Are my professors going to be strict or affable next sem?

Is my clinical instructor going to be hard on me?

ARRRGGGGHHH!!!!

Too much stuff going on on my head!!!

But one thing's for sure: I am freakin goin to clinicals!!!! WOOOHOOO!!!!

moving in

I've finally moved on to my new house. Or dorm. Ngaun lang nag sink-in na malayo na talaga ako sa mga kapatid at friends ko. I miss them so much. I have so much to do and so much to study. Parang pag ako lang nalulungkot ako lalo. Wala akong diversion. Maybe kasi first day ko pa lang dito. Sana talaga makasurvive ako.

agosto na

I still need a bunch of things to do before I move to my new school.

1. I still need to buy a dress for my Mama gen's wedding this friday. It's just a court wedding but man, the reception is going to be at Drake Hotel. I need to be bongga for her wedding. Parang ako ang ikakasal noh.
2. I still don't know if I should rent a van for my moving day. I don't know anyone who has a pick up truck or an SUV that I can put my things in.
3. I still have to budget my LA trip. Fuck!!! I'm really stressed bout money right now. That's why I do my best to work full time. I am only working for two weeks, and the pressure of having moolah after is beyond me.
4. I still need to prepare my brain for nursing. I know it's going to be tough, and I know I have to manage my time from this point onwards.

dark knight rocks!!!

I just watched Dark Knight. I'm not really an expert on giving movie reviews. All I can say is, Bravo Heath, Bravo!!!

I just love how Heath portrayed as the Joker. Not only is he so hot, but he can act! Ang galing galing nyang umarte.

Kudos to Heath!!!

budget

With only two paychecks remaining, I am struggling on how to budget my money. I have lots of bills to pay and I really need to cut down on my expenses. I won't be working when I start my nursing program. Pukpukan na ang aking pagaaral para maistorbo pa ang time ko ng pagtatrabaho.

Hanggang sa pagtulog ko, naiisip ko ang dollar sign ($). Sobrang stressed na ko on how to handle my expenses. Hindi na nga ako pumupunta ng mall. Pero parang sa sobrang dami ng kelangang kong paggastosan, parang walang tulong ang di ko pagshopping.

Kelangan kong magipon ng pocket money para sa LA trip ko. Kelangan kong bayaran ung credit card bills ko. Kelangan kong bayaran ung cell phone bill ko. Kelangan kong bumili ng mga kakailanganin ko para sa paglipat ko.

Josko!!! Ang hirap magisip pag pera na ang pinaguusapan. Hanu bayan????

PS. Last night, my sister gave me money. She said that she sensed that I badly needed the money. Thank God for my sister who is a RN-PCCN by the way. Woohoo!!! Thanks so much ate!

3 weeks of no shopping

This is kind of new to me. I haven't been to the mall for the past three weeks. Normally, once I get my paycheck, the next day, I would be at the mall shopping for new clothes or watching a movie with popcorn on my hand.

However, for the past couple of weeks, I realized that I should start saving for my future especially now that I am going to transfer to a more expensive university. Plus, I won't be working there while I study. Lastly, I will resign to my current job.

Despite the fact that I am saving for my college future, I am also aiming to buy a cellphone that I can use when I transfer.

I'm still debating on which one to get.

The Sony Ericsson G900i

Nokia e51

or Nokia 6300i.

It doesn't matter what brand of cellphone I should get, as long as it has wi-fi and a soft keypad for txting.

Ano ba talaga ang bibilhin ko???

sabi ng kaibigan ko

Sabi ng aking mapagmahal na kaibigan, masyado daw akong mapagbigay sa mga kaibigan at mga past relationship ko. Masyado ko daw minahal ang aking mga ex boyfriend. Masyado ko daw inasikaso ang mga kaibigan ko. Minsan sa sobrang asikaso at pagmamahal ko daw, napapabayaan ko na ang sarili ko. Sabi ko sa kanya, may time pa naman ako sa sarili ko. Sabi nya, akala ko lang daw yun.

Nung nagbakasyon ang pinaka close kong kaibigan, parang unti unti kong narealize na napaka self-absorbed nya. Parating dapat sya muna ang inaasikaso at inaalala. Dapat pag may gimik kami, aayon dapat sa schedule nya. Kapag hindi kami nakapunta sa gimik, magagalit sya. Ngaun ko lang narealize na never nya akong inasikaso sa haba ng panahon na magkaibigan kami. Lahat ng problema nya, parati akong nandun at sasandalan nya. Nung nakapasok sya sa isang napakagandang eskwelahan, masaya ako para sa kanya. Nung ako ang nakapasok sa nursing program, parang wala akong narinig mula sa kanya na masaya sya para sa kin.

Kinausap ko ang aking kaibigan tungkol dun. Sabi lang nya sa akin, huwag ko daw ituon ung attention ko at ang happiness ko sa isang tao. Kelangan maging masaya ako sa sarili ko bago ko pansinin ang mga sasabihin ng ibang tao.

Tama naman sya. 100 % na tama sya. Pero parang ang hirap lang tanggapin na pagkatapos mong ibigay ang pagmamahal mo sa isang tao, babaliwalain lang nila.

LA, here I come

My LA trip finally came true. I have enough perks with Northwest Airline that I only paid $105 for my ticket. I've been saving those perks for my next out of state trip. Perks is like points you earn when you travel. The more miles you travel, the more perks/points you get.

Anyhoo, I'm so excited about this trip. I will leave in August 15 so it's too early to pack my things. What excites me the most is that I'm traveling alone. It's just me and a friend who will help me explore the beauty of LA.

I can't wait...

i want my social life back

I haven't had a decent social life for the past week. I worked from monday through thursday, spent friday, saturday and sunday at home, doing chores, watching Friends and sleeping my lazy ass off. It's not that I'm complaining. I really need to relax and I know I won't be able to do this once I start my nursing school in August. It's just that I miss going out. Last saturday, a friend of mine invited me to watch Pacquiao's game, but I refused. Not that I don't want to see my friend, but I just don't feel like watching boxing or any kind of sports. I'd rather stay home, eat chips and ice cream than watching his game.

I miss clubbing and drinking and smoking. The last time that I went to a party was two weeks ago. And I gotta say, it's a long time since I smoked.

Oh well... I chose to stay home. I have to just wait for next week's agenda.

forgive my hormones

I feel like I am still stuck in my own world. All my friends have moved on. Some have new relationships. Some have babies on the way. And me, I'm still stuck with my studies. Not that I'm complaining, but at my age, I should be planning on my future. I should be saving right now coz who knows what will happen to me. I should be planning on my career and what I really want to be. I should be establishing able to save up for my own place in the future.

When I was 18 years old, I said to myself that when I turn 25, I have to get married. That was my marrying age. When I had my first boyfriend and got brokenhearted, I said to myself, I still need to get married by 25. Then I had my 2nd boyfriend and got hurt again, that's when I said "enough of the I-have-to-get-married-by-25 crap".

In seven months, I will turn 25. I'm still mending my broken heart and I'm just starting to move on as a single gal. To top that, I still need 2 more years of my life to finish nursing and then by then, hopefully I can get a stable job. Being successful at the age of 28 isn't that bad, right?

I guess my new marrying age is: Never to marry at all. hahahaha

vacation pics

My 6 days of vacation were a blast!!! My sibs and I had a great time together. We ate a lot of ice cream, sandwiches, custard and confectionaries.

On our first three days, we stayed at Beachfront Inn. We chose the lakefront view, and boy, it was really calm. In the morning, we strolled around and the end of the day, we would just hang out in our room, and just look at the view and listen to the calm lake. It was really serene.

We also visited 2 lighthouses. It was my first time to see a real lighthouse.

Our next stay was Bed and Breakfast at White Lace Inn. They served french toast, banana muffin and fruit cup on our first day and served omelette and yogurt with granola on top on our second day. It was good but not as what I expected.

Anyhoo, I'll just show pictures of our trip.

I'll definitely go back!

I'm back!!!

I'm back from my 6 days escapade with my siblings. I had one hell of a vacation. It was fun, relaxing experience. I couldn't wait to go back to Wisconsin.

Photos to follow. I have to work right away to earn moolah.

Oh, by the way, I HATE MY FRIGGIN BREAKOUTS!!!! wahhhh

2 more days

And I haven't started packing yet. We haven't shop for foods yet.

I just got off from work and when I get home, I'll definitely pack my things and do some food shopping with my bro tomorrow.

I can't wait. One week of pure bliss.

4 more days to go...

When I got accepted in the nursing program, I knew that I will have 2 tormenting years of my life ahead of me. I knew I had to escape while I can. So during the remaining 3 months of my blissful life, my sibs and I planned to have an out of trip experience.

It's been almost a year since I actually traveled out of town. My first out of town experience was Las Vegas. This year, I'm targeting Wisconsin and Los Angeles. My sibs and I are going on a one-week vacation at Wisconsin. Since Wisconsin can be reach in land, we planned to do long driving. I'm actually excited packing than the vacation itself. Packing relaxes me. For some, it may be exhausting and stressful, but for me, it's quite enjoyable.

I'm still considering about my LA trip. It's actually expensive for me since I will stop working when I start the nursing program. My friend invited me over at her place and promised me that she will tour me in LA. I must admit, I'm tempted to accept the offer. However, I still need to think about it. I have to consider the expenses I have to budget.

I just want a nice and relaxing vacation.

Dear Macy's sales attendant

After my dreadful finals two weeks ago, I decided to shop at your store. I always knew that your products are not cheap. I am eyeing on the Skagen watch on your website for months. Since I haven't shop in a long time, I decided to stop by your store and take a closer look at the watch.


As I was approaching your booth, I noticed that you stared at me from head to foot. I guessed my NorthFace jacket, jogging pants and sneakers did not give you justice that I, too, can shop at your store.



"Can I try it on?", I said.


"Sure."


You obliged when I asked if I can try the watch on. Of course, THAT'S YOUR FREAKIN JOB! I eyed on it for a while before asking how much it is.


"I'm just wondering, how much is this?"


This is where you really pissed the hell out of me.


You said, "It's $ 130. I'm sorry."


You're sorry? For what dummy? Don't you think I'm not capable of buying this stupid crap? Huh? F*ck!!!


I hate people who discriminate shoppers based on their physical appearance. It doesn't mean that when a person wears lousy outfit, they don't have the right to even step at the friggin store. What if I'm wearing a professional looking outfit, will you give me special attention? Will you offer to give me a drink while you're helping me find what I'm looking for? And if not, will you say sorry everytime you say the price? Will you stare at me and think that I can't buy it coz I don't have money? That's plain stupid.


You are a sales attendant. You are suppose to help customers and not judge them or stare at them from head to toe as if they are beggars asking for money.




I hope I won't see you when I shop there. With my mood right now, I might have to slap you. I don't want to stoop down to your level. Never.



Bitchin bout your service,

kikaygal

Woohoo!!!!!

After 2 years of waiting, I finally got accepted in the Nursing Program. My academic advisor let me know that I'm accepted about two months ago. I couldn't believe it at first. It hasn't sink in yet because I was finishing my spring semester back then. Now that I am done with my last semester in my current school, I feel like I'm going to study double time.

I have a total of 15 credit hours and I'm going to start August this year. Another thing, they require every nursing student to have immunizations for clinical experience. I looked at the costs of each immunizations and they're expensive. The most expensive immunization is the Varicella which costs about $95.

Must.Work.Double.Time.

*sigh*

yadayadayada…

My second blog is born. This is where I vent when I can’t take the stress anymore.

My previous blog is all about relationships, hearbreak and some boring stuff that I have no idea why I wrote it down.

This time, I want this blog to be different. I want to just write for my own sake and just release all the tension that surrounds me.